Hi Patricia. I am very sorry for what you went through and are currently experiencing. I pray God heals you sooner than soon and may you experience His freedom. You will definitely be in my prayers now. Thank you for sharing your struggles and would love to help if possible. I have been through so much in my life as well, and never experienced true love from anyone, not even family. When I finally gave my heart, mind and life to Jesus at age 16, and started a daily devotion with Him, was when I finally felt loved and free at last. There are no right words to tell someone going through a tough life, nor is there those “right” words we are waiting for from someone… But one thing I do know for certain is this, Jesus is as His word says, “the truth, the life, and the way..” No one could ever heal our hearts and minds like He can. No doctor, no counseling session, not even medication could heal right to the core. Only He can. All of us have a different process, at different pace, but one similar thing is we run to the same Father, that is Jesus Christ. He has healed me from hatred, resentment, shattered heart, and trauma, not to mention physical illness as well. But we must give Him our all. I sent you virtual hugs. Stay strong.